Don’t Stop the Drip Drop

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The view from my room after the downpour. I hope you can see that unclear water drop from the ceiling.

It has been a pluvious morning so far and the rain actually stopped like 2 minutes ago. Well, it brought mixed emotions within. Don’t get me wrong. I love the rain. I thanked God for it because I know the plants are rejoicing now with the abundant water supply provided for them. Well, I think the shower today was the strongest for this month. (By the way, if you still don’t know, it’s already rainy season here in the Philippines. It starts from June and can extend up to September. We only have 2 seasons here you know. So yeah, lying on a pile of orange leaves or making a snow angel is still on my my bucket list.) And with this weather, it’s not hard to appreciate the coolness of the air, a refreshing balm from the usual heat we have in a tropical country. But my gratitude and relief were quite short-lived. I got irked out because the rain came on such a wrong time- when I was doing the laundry manually outside the house (plus some other related stuff which I need not mention). Good thing, it stopped for a little while but talk about the perfect nightmare of having the clothes you just washed drying slowly, without the sun’s help. (Our washing machine is left unfixed so you get the picture. :/) But this is not what I’m going to write about. Looks like I’ve shared too much already. (Laughs) Forgive me. With the timeliness of a rainy Wednesday, I just wanted to share how my Tuesday was rainy too but in a different way.

You see, yesterday, before I wrote my “Round and Round… No More” post, I spent some alone time with the Lord through contemplation and prayer. With music to enrich my experience, I was getting emotional. And I cried. I cried out of desperation, out of shame, out of conviction, out of helplessness. (If you read my post, you’ll understand where I was coming from.) I just cried to Him.

It wasn’t long until I cried again while watching the movie, “Miracles from Heaven” with my family. Although some parts of the movie didn’t agree with my beliefs, the true-to-life story touched my heart in ways I didn’t expect. I was clearly overwhelmed with the many essential lessons I drew with regards to faith and family. (If you still haven’t watched it, I highly recommend it! Just prepare your tissues or hankies though especially if you’re onion-skinned.)

And just when you think it’s the end of my tear provoking journey!  I decided to respond to the people who liked my post yesterday and I ended up reading some of their works. I was inspired and blessed with what I read. Until that one post where I almost cried because her message was just what I needed at the moment!

(Sighs.) I really cried a lot yesterday that if there was like a normal value range for tears, I’d say I was in the ‘Very High’ category. Or worse, did I defeat Sadness from ‘Inside Out’? Haha… But seriously, I realized later (and even now as I’m typing this) something valuable: Crying is okay. Crying is beautiful. We live in a world where crying is ‘usually’ considered weakness or femininity. But I beg to disagree. To cry is to say that you are strong enough to accept that you can’t make it on your own. To cry is to let go. To cry is to be human.

So whatever happens or wherever I may be, if I feel  like crying, I won’t stop the drip drop. Because after all, for me, tears are no waste.

P.S.Wow, just, wow! As I was about to end this post, the rain returned! Talk about natural reinforcement!

 

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Unleashing the Kangaroo in Me

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SOURCE: http://kids.nationalgeographic.com/content/dam/kids/photos/animals/Mammals/H-P/kangaroo-hopping

Fresh from a precious nap, you might expect me to be energized to write out this entry. Or it might be the new month feels. (Wah, it’s already June 1?) Although they might be influential, there is certainly something deeper and more relevant that prompted me to hit the ‘Create a New Post’ button. Before sleeping earlier, I was not feeling well but I managed to have my daily, alone time with God. The message from Our Daily Bread was so timely and so inspiring that it got me thinking and self-evaluating. God’s providence even in the message you receive for the day never fails to amaze me. It was the same way too yesterday. So I guess now, you know why I really want to share this and hopefully, you can get something from this brief post.

From ODB, I learned that kangaroos seldom move backward and so do emus. Well, their anatomies are responsible for that. In analogy, the writer pointed out the importance of moving forward instead of being stuck in the past. I like what he said in the last paragraph: “While it is wise to learn from the past, we shouldn’t live in the past. We cannot redo or undo the past, but by God’s grace we can press forward and serve God faithfully today and in the future. The life of faith is a journey forward as we become like Christ.” These words hit me hard and led me to a self-examination because recently, things have been difficult for me. I was convicted of letting the past haunt me or rule my life even though there was already a time  I had to let go.

As I look back, I can’t help but feel regret for some things that I did. The feeling is mutual when I remember how I lost my IPhone 5 (it got wet during our trip to Palawan). Don’t get me wrong; I am not materialistic. But it kills me to know that I could never retrieve all the photos and videos taken from that device. Well, I just comfort myself though with the thought that at least, I didn’t lose something far valuable. I truly believe you know, dear reader, what I’m referring to. These are not actually things but people, values, etc. And before I forget, God taught me a lesson that day, learned the hard way but never forgotten. However, I’ll keep that to myself.

It wasn’t only in May that I was still bothered by the past. Just this morning, while doing the laundry with my sister, our conversation led to a ‘sensitive’ topic- the board exam. If you read my post on my board exam experience, then you’d understand where I’m coming from and why I mentioned it here. The unwanted reactions surely prove that I still didn’t move on completely and after reading the passage from ODB, God was clearly reminding me that I had to do so.

How about you, my friend? Are you still buried in the past that you can’t come out victorious even if you wanted to? Are you still harboring all those regrets and what-ifs in your mind? Now is the time to release them to the Lord. Now is the time to let go and completely entrust Him your life in faith. Now is the time to find your inner kangaroo and set it free.

P.S. Here’s something from the Bible to inspire you to move forward like a kangaroo (I hope the song would do likewise): “Brethren, I do not count myself to have apprehended; but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead, I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus” (3:13-14).

Never Too Late

 

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SOURCE: muslimmirror.com

The past few days have been heart-wrenching for the world as we saw how Paris was unexpectedly thrown into a frenzy of terrorist attacks. And with ISIS claiming responsibility for the insidious events, it is just stark to have the victim retaliate on Syria with massive explosions. Hate begets hate, violence begets violence. What a sad world we’re living in!

I remember how affected I was upon hearing the tragic news last Saturday night. It was a change of mood for me because I was so blessed and glad after having a wonderful Sabbath. (On a side note , I just want to share that any happening of this kind disturbs me. If I watched the news about the Lumads and other issues in the country, I would deliberately express my opinion. But because I had no access to TV in the past weeks, I was not able to know about these recent occurrences. Well, med school has it cons, you know.) To witness how many innocent lives were lost is really difficult. It causes one not only to pray for Paris but for humanity. I don’t know how it is for you but besides prayer, events like these remind me that Jesus is coming soon. Yes, Jesus is really coming soon!

It is said in Matthew 24:6-7 – And you will hear of wars and rumors of wars. See that you are not troubled; for all these things must come to pass, but the end is not yet. For nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom. And there will be famines, pestilences, and earthquakes in various places. These verses simply affirm that the Paris attacks serve as one of the signs of Jesus’ second coming. Instead of living in fear, what should we do in response to all these realities? Personally speaking, I can’t afford to cave in and lose out on life’s moments. I would rather go for making the most of the time left I have in this world in preparation for the world to come. You see, the world to come is of great importance for me and it is actually our true home, not Earth. I can’t wait to be home; I’m pretty tired of life here in this sin-sick, dying world!

In addition, let us not forget to repent of our sins and live holy lives. If Jesus is coming soon, why are we all so busy with the things of this world? Why are we still passive in our walk with the Lord and in His ministry? Why are we clinging to our darling sins and old habits? Undeniably, I am not exempted. I feel like if Jesus would come later or even now, I don’t feel worthy to be one of the saved. I don’t feel ready but I desperately want to be. The truth hurts but I accept it fully because I have a long way to go in my Christian life and acceptance is key in doing something about this. Praise God because we can always confess to Him our wrong doings and be made whole again (1 John 1:9). I want to share part of Nehemiah 9:17 which I read from my morning devotional: … But You are God, ready to pardon, gracious and merciful, slow to anger, abundant in kindness, and did not forsake them. What a loving God we have!

So, dear reader, what are you waiting for? It is never too late to come back to Jesus, the One Who gave His life for you; for humanity to be saved. It is a tough call, an uneasy thing to do but it is all worth it for the eternal riches we have in Jesus Christ. With prayer and faith, please join me in preparation for a grand homecoming!

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Wouldn’t it be wonderful to be part of this marvelous event? SOURCE: http://www.newlife5.com

 

P.S. May this video remind you that Jesus is simply waiting for you to come back to Him…

 

 

 

 

 

 

2014: A Year of Blessings

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This is me with a grateful smile for all God’s bountiful blessings this 2014… 🙂

Whew… Alas, I have arrived at the last day of 2014 and were it not for God’s grace, I would not be here. As I look back to the previous year, I can’t help but thank God for all the blessings He has given me and my family. May it be through trials or gifts, closed doors or opportunities. This year has been a blast and I consider it one of the best years for me since it is packed with highlights, which I will share with you, dear reader. Each, I consider a blessing.

I was still an intern when the year started and it found me saying goodbye to Riverside Medical Center after 2 months of duty there. I enjoyed my stay at the laboratory full of friendly staff and awesome machines. One defining moment during my time there was our Christmas party where my fellow UNO-R interns and I won 4th place for our group performance which was a spoof of Showtime’s SIne Mo ‘To. I got to perform Wrecking Ball with Zidluck and it was both embarrassing and fun at the same time I continued my duties at Adventist Medical Center- Bacolod where my internship experience was more fun and memorable. The atmosphere in the lab was so light; it was like you belonged to a family. From overcoming my ‘shaking’ problem during venipuncture to meeting the ‘girl’ of my dreams there, the internship was one of the most challenging and memorable experiences in my life. I was glad that I was able to touch lives and be a witness for Jesus.

The second blessing was my graduation which took place on March 22, 2014. After 4 years in a Catholic university which was tough, I finally left UNO-R and unexpectedly, with flying colors. I thought I would never be an honor graduate due to my cross-enrollment for a subject which fell on a Sabbath. But God rewarded my faithfulness and so I graduated cum laude. Oh, I remember that moment of joyful surprise when I learned of this news! It was such a special blessing and I will always be grateful to God for it.

Third, the opportunity to serve God as a literature evangelist during summer was a worthwhile effort and I learned a lot from the ministry. The spiritual benefits outweigh the monetary ones.

Fourth, unemployment is an unusual blessing. After my in-house review, my life kinda took a sudden turn when I had to be the “atsoy” of the house. I was left at home most of the time, doing the chores and reviewing for the baord exams and NMAT. I really wanted to help my parents financially and so I applied at a hospital for the position of phlebotomist. But it was clear that God’s will for me was not to work yet. It was hard at first to accept this harsh truth but good enough, I was able to move on. In God’s time, I shall be employed and work for His glory.

Fifth, my dream of  having a piano concert was fulfilled on the eve of my 21st birthday, October 24. It was a truly meaningful event because it was my ‘debut’ and it was a concert for a cause (all the proceeds went to the Jail Ministry of our church). Entitled “Through Life’s Ebony and Ivory”, I played pieces arranged by Greg Howlett which were songs that impacted my life. Giving back my talent to God was wonderful. I will always cherish this moment in my heart.

Sixth, my NMAT experience last Novem Despite my lack of sleep the night before, God sustained me and so I survived the whole test. And just 2 weeks before, I got my results and all praises to the One who provided me with strength and wisdom on that fateful day!

Last but not the least, the blessings of family and friends have made all the ones mentioned above more special and beautiful. Without these peeps supporting me and comforting me, what would I be? I remember our foodtrips and ‘lagaw’ at SM. Our time bonding with each other, may it be at church or simply at home. And of course, the recent Christmas fellowship that we had was superb! Indeed, time with family is something to look forward to.

So these are all my blessings this 2014! They all come in different forms, some expected, few otherwise but one thing remains true: God is the Source of all them. And in heartfelt gratitude, all I can say is To God be the glory!! 🙂

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P.S. Happy New Year guys! Have a blissful 2o15!